my goodness

i am left behind
and have so much stuffs to catch up.

bloody hell

 i wonder if the blood circulating around our eyelids area 

is the MOST delicious part for mosquitoes

instead of others.

this is my proof.

>:O

bloody hell

like i was given a punch on my right eye.

that freaking irritating tiny little creature had caused my dermatologic allergy once again bugging me. hmph i curse you! i promise myself not to scratch the wound again. 

i hate titles >:O !!

okay, this is definitely not a tender post. im not gonna care how people will think of me and how will they feel like if i publish this post, just because yours truly are so done of everything. this is my blog i can ramble anything i like. yeah, im crazy. im psychotic. like i haven't been through enough this year. *on fire*
  
i've been learning how to deal with peoples and how should i lead myself to the best way of communicating. by the typical terms and conditions between people and not revealing all the thoughts of mine just in case conflicts would've getting worse. but SO WHAT? i ended up being the meat inside the burger between two breads. and the thing is these are NONE of my business. i just tried to be a good and responsible friend. as a hypothesis i'll make them A and B. A is kind of sentimental and B is like more straight forward and aggressive. i know their stand very well, some times i listened to both of them, acknowledged their doubts and trying to cool things down IF i could. but apparently i happened to become a professional listener somehow. 


so the story is, the A and B are still going against each other, i knew it very well. there's no right or wrong but just humans raised in different background, we couldn't blame each other for not accepting our own point of views even if u think yours is more reasonable or dominating. listen to others and to think with different perspectives are essential. so the meat, which means me, however, accidentally scraped by one of the bullets of theirs. today, after been through the exhaustion of the travels for lessons and hanging around for nothing, i could say that even a tiny simple lit of fire is pissing me off. i couldn't shoulder any straw already that was the last! stingy, i admit. always having the burning sense of being a pacifist but i just failed, once i decided to post this. 


but the fact is, 
i had fun all alone yesterday, got my longing stuff.
i had fun being a geek after the trip, sleeping and slacking like nobody's business.
i had fun during the 2D1N trip, took gazillion of photos.
i had fun shopping days ago with lovely roommate, splurged around like insane.
simple things could just easily enlighten my day. but,


this was just screwed me up.


i'll still be responsible for everything that i should do or help, still putting up a good front. 
i send my apologies if i need to. 
blame me if you'd like to. because yours truly are still suck at communicating and talking.


a lengthy post again. oh please, give me a break.




loves, jc.

random post again

i am not that easy to fool around.

=]

every time when i have the mood to blog i always don't know how to start. D: 

the webcam picture snapping program distracted me from my shitty history powerpoint presentation work. there you go, an annoying glance. heh :D 

sometimes it feels great when i take off my glasses, and see the world with vague vision. i get to feel something different. something which i think it is difficult to describe by words. for those who wear glasses, have a try then, but only under harmless condition for example there's no vehicles speeding beside you. =] as for those who have normal vision, all i can say is u guys are so damn lucky enough to have gifted a pair of healthy eyes. take good care of them.

that's all for this post. gonna continue with my powerpoint. D:

good night~ 

ROAR

DO NOT MESS WITH ME

I AM SO DAMN FREAKING FUCKING EXTREMELY PISSED!!

TOUCH MY BOTTOM LINE EVER AGAIN AND YOU'LL KNOW

I DON'T CARE.

SUPER ANNOYING.

gotta fix myself for the coming exam

i get pissed and i gotta fix myself again.

wtf.

xoxo

guys,

i love y'all like HELL.

seriously

:D :D

these fellas always have the magic power for making me go gaga 

or made up my day.

and this magic spell

 enchanted me ♥

xoxo!

hello

well, guess what? my blogging mojo has totally gone that's why my blog is so freaking dead. i um, yeah. am no longer a mess. let me think what to do with this blog alright. i'm just lazy. VERY. lots of things to say but i have no idea in transforming them literally into words.

by.the.way.

LOOK AT HIM!!

AND THIS ONE!!! AWWW...*melts*

HAHAHA THIS IS EPIC. :D :D

everything happens for a reason. he's ADORABLE right?!!

yeah. it happens for me to like him that much because

NO ONE CAN BE AS MAN AS HIM ALREADY!!!

*dies* 

okay i'm officially insane but then, the pictures are doing their talk show. 

chuck aka ed westwick is still mesmerizing. i know u guys are agree with me. :D :D

done my rambling. good day homo sapiens. :D

another random post

To write something close to your heart is always difficult.

and well, im gonna leave them flying around in my dream.


let's not be disheartened, im over here endeavoring also.


:D move on move on move on move on move on move on move on move on :D

cheers =)

told u i hate titles!

was back to my lovely msia since 23rd of january

time flies.

i hell dont feel like going back to shanghai that fast 

mean it. I SERIOUSLY MEAN IT!

time heals everything.

but the condition is people need to be patient enough to stand with the time.

happy new year~

being the first day of 2011, i decided to post something. i should have posted something anyhow cause my blog was being covered with a thick dust for about a month. 
:D my apologies :D


well let's see. 2010, there are good times and bad times. but it seemed like mostly are more towards the good...ones? yeah at least i think so. i'm not gonna post everything here since there's a LOT i'd been through like coming here to shanghai, was too much of an idiot while dealing with relationship matters, get to know a bunch of great and awesome friends, too much to list down and my final is coming very soon so i need to seize every minute from now to study. and by the way, those are my personal stuffs and it's meant to be private, at least i keep them very deep inside me =). 2010 was indeed a challenging year for me. parts were my fault, i admit and i know that today, mark the first day of 2011 (it's already the second day >v<), it's gonna be a brand new year and good year. i just know it will be. =)

A BRAND NEW YEAR, A BRAND NEW ME, A BRAND NEW IMAGE. 

i'll be good i promise! 

will study very very hard.

had been sulking for a long time already, december if not mistaken. but the problem with sulking is, i had to self-comfort again. bu~ 

i use the word had meaning i will be much better for this year! hmph. 

there are of course awesome memories as well ♥ :D. but no matter those memories are bad or good, everything will be kept, treasured. i learn from mistakes and im still learning.

have hell much self-enrichment thingy to improve. i don't know what the hell im thinking these days but when i was about to snuggle to bed there's a lot of thoughts (A LOT!) running inside my mind. i wonder why my sleep is so challenging. =0= 

HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS!! will update soon i guess? been busy with works and exams and assignments and different events and don't know what else. @.@ 

but one important thing is, 

i. am. going. back. very. very. soon.

okay, enough of wordy wordy post. haha

Enjoy your day to the fullest! :D

xoxo!