is this real?

HOLY CRAP.

a bad opening in this post.

basically, speaking of winter

my mind came out like this:

lazy sunshine shining through the world with a little warmth.

with snowy white covering the earth. 

i love white~XD

better if the snow swirling into BEAUTIFUL patterns 
around the trees and people and roads.

even BETTER if i could build a snowman with a carrot as the nose. =D

 BESTEST if i could go snowboarding with the wind whispering on my cheeks!

But then but then..I just got a news that my very first coming winter could be the COOLEST over one thousand year. Hey, thousand you know, thousand. Not funny. What if i failed to overcome and screw all my papers? what if my place all flooded with snow? what if the frost bites away my nose? so many what-ifs. i think i gila already. gone so paranoid. 

OKAY, my brain jam already don't know what to crap some more. Time will tell and let's see if i could survive. i think i can. *firmest glance*. hahaha. 

im not gonna die so soon i tell you.