Cheesy head

My brain doesn't have enough transitional expressions to pro-up my dissertation.

I've got likewise, also, in the same way, similarly, moreover

but in fact I applied "与此同时", "同样的"，"同样"，"同样"，“同样”

like a gazillion times.

True story.

How can it be!?

It sucked.

Changes.

I've been here actually. Changed my background and blog title. I wanted to be more colourful 'cause I find colour is an utmost important element, as in interconnection with my mood! But I don't know if I could really blog everything I feel like. In order to make things least complicated, eventually I decided to sign out and as people can see I've abandoned my blog for months. 

Things changed, so does people. Especially for people who are living and staying together. There's a thing that always happened around us is we can never ever expect people to do what you expect them to. Like people would wish to concern and involved in every single detail of your friend but it just turned out they're most likely suffocating the friend from their privacy. Maybe they think it's just not a big deal I just simply care for you but you know what, for me I care my privacy more. I used to argue with my ex mainly because of this 'cause I'm like more of an independent girl. I need my break and I didn't feel like telling. So, okay that's it. Long live privacy. :P

We have many ways to deal with people. Just do the right one and don't try to back stab or brainwash your friend. Tell you what the brain is one of the most subtle and tricky and complicated stuffs in the world. You will never know what actually someone is thinking and what will happen next. There's a really good song from Michael Jackson which is "Man In The Mirror", stated "If you wanna make the world a better place, TAKE A LOOK AT YOURSELF, and then make a change." The most appropriate statement for the not particularly lovely people around us.

Gotta say something delightful though. A new album is coming! 5 days till Red. Can't wait. How come she can be this pretty and talented! 

Ciao! 
Have no idea when is my next post. Have a great day peeps :) 

always believe that everything will be okay

我要的不多，真的。

我只希望我爱的人，在乎的人

能够平平安安，身体健康

 

 

这就够了。

My blog is dead than ever. The fact is sometimes i don't have the guts to face my thoughts. Nah, i just wanna hide myself where no one can find hehehehhe ;P

lemme share one lovely thingy ♥

 this dress is so pretty and i like it so much. 

THIIIIIIIIIISSSSSSS MUCH.

so far i can't find any in msia, this sucks.

but the good thing is i could get it online.

which means i can't even try and see whether it fits me or not, more sucks. 

i wish everyone is doing great in this CNY break like i do. :D

hola!

I'm bloody lazy to update my blog, like seriously. SUPER DUPER LAZY because I don't know what to update so far. Actually it's a lot, October happened to be my happiest and busiest month but it's so damn troublesome for me to sign in here. Sooo... miss me? ;p

HANG ON, I'M HAVING MY MID-TERM NOW. 

I PROMISE I'LL UPDATE THIS ASAP! I PROMISE!

TEMPTATION IS HARD TO RESIST. I MUST HAVE SELF-CONTROL.

till then.

see ya.

This is going to be a short post.


First, it feels weird. people still do like to judge me like as if they know what happened to me & they know me very well. please don't. you just make a big fool out of yourself. seriously, if you don't know any shit, please just shut up and don't make any judgments. um well, i cannot control the mindset but i guess what i need to do is just stand still in my own position. it's quite important to know how to play the game, right?  


Second, i hate gossips. Any questions, ask me and i'll tell you. 


Third, hello Shanghai and bye-bye Malaysia. Mixed feelings within, i wanted to go back there asap and end my study, meanwhile i dont think this 1.5 year left is enough for me to learn what i want. and.. yet i haven't got my luggage packed. 


Lastly, i think im going to miss you so so much, it feels so good talking to someone i do not have to pretend to be or be cautious of. *wink wink* Dearest you know what, i'm really really proud of you. hugss.  

oh, what a silent night

sometimes, i really wonder, am i right or i just simply screw things up by keeping in touch with a long-time-no-see-friend? i mean, i just want us to be friends, but not more than coz we haven't met each other for years. but then the worst things is when you just tryna be friendly people might think you're delivering something different. i hate texts like "how's your day?" "have you had yr lunch?" "why're you not replying me?!" and I'M DONE! I wonder is it interesting enough to poke your nose into people's business, like everyday?! I seriously swear that nobody will believe that these texts are exist between normal friends. The thing is i feel guilty for not replying, and i don't know how to do. please, i don't want to lose a friend anymore. don't know how to describe that feeling -.- i know ignoring peoples and the texts even calls is like bullshit, sucks to the max.


dear universe/god,
i just want this chance to make things right.
give me this one more chance :)
thank you.

pretty ;)

by the way, the dress that i want to buy is out of stock!! :'<
hate you all for buying away all that dress. aargh.
yeah i feel depressed recently.


ciaoz

It's better to be kind than to be right

Alright, i think this is another lengthy post again.


This quote is from Kevin Tan, the CEO of Sunway Pyramid and Sunway Group of Shopping Malls. Yeah that's right he was talking about Dharma in the Kechara House, a buddhist organisation located in Petaling Jaya. My sis goes there every Sunday for their youth Manjushri class. I just went there for thier adult talk coz i'm an adult already ;D. 


Okay back to the topic, i thought i was just attending an ordinary talk delivered by a random person inside the house, but then when i realised that within the audiences there's different field of persons like doctor, businessmen, or people from the kechara media and publication, frankly i was amazed. Kevin shared the spiritual quotient and how he applys dharma to the workplace, most importantly how to deal with office politics. But overall most inspirative throughout his talk is in Maslow's dying bed, he said that the hierarchy of needs should be inverted. If one has had the self-actualization, everything is no longer a big deal, including our physiological needs. (Somewhat this is true but i think without the food how can we acquire our enlightenment? Guess i've still got a long long way to go.) Still Kevin shared some "Dharma-tic" contribution he's done and the way he thinks live should be, not to dominated by "the three poisons" which are greed, hatred and delusion. No one can say that you're wrong if you were trying to be kind or benefit others. I was amused by the way he talked and how he deals with his staffs. i hope to have a boss like him lah. Kevin is such a successful businessman and a lovable husband and father. He brings his family along every week.


I don't think i could explain all the things i've heard in this blog. By the way, i was feeling good and overwhelming after that. And when i was waiting for sis, one lady (Mdm. Hunney) approached me, that time i was staring at one of the charts at the house. She was being enthusiastic and explained the Samsara to me, for 15 minutes perhaps. So now i know there're 6 realms we're being through continuously just that we're so fortunate to being in the human beings realm. Just to be kind and stop committing sins that could likely lead us to the animal or hungry ghost even the dreadful hell realms. 


All i can say that this Kechara Organisation is unique. They involved different fields of people and so familiar with the Sanskrit hymns, it's so so so original and i like it. This is the first time for me to attend an english based Buddhism event. i kinda love them. 


This is important: Of course i know religion is kinda sensitive, but these are just my personal views, i'm not a missionary. Take it easy guys :)

crap.

Holy crap, the long-gone feeling and my garnered experiences have been intruding myself these days. I seriously hoping that this is just a result from my everyday-slacking in the midst of my lovely summer break, causing me extremely free (not really) and think slightly beyond from ordinary views. It's like living at home, with parents who existed in a constant state of heightened paranoia about the increasingly dangerous place that Klang Valley (or Malaysia) had become. YEAH, I'm being PARANOIA. Praying hard and i seriously hope that. 

FYI, im back in Malaysia again. ;P everything is still the same except that the Bersih 2.0 fever and impact is still a hot issue, press and internet news are stuffed with them. It's a cool thing that i heard some of my friends are also involved inside. ;)

i have no idea how come i guffawed for so long. :D

my goodness

i am left behind
and have so much stuffs to catch up.