i hate titles >:O !!

okay, this is definitely not a tender post. im not gonna care how people will think of me and how will they feel like if i publish this post, just because yours truly are so done of everything. this is my blog i can ramble anything i like. yeah, im crazy. im psychotic. like i haven't been through enough this year. *on fire*
  
i've been learning how to deal with peoples and how should i lead myself to the best way of communicating. by the typical terms and conditions between people and not revealing all the thoughts of mine just in case conflicts would've getting worse. but SO WHAT? i ended up being the meat inside the burger between two breads. and the thing is these are NONE of my business. i just tried to be a good and responsible friend. as a hypothesis i'll make them A and B. A is kind of sentimental and B is like more straight forward and aggressive. i know their stand very well, some times i listened to both of them, acknowledged their doubts and trying to cool things down IF i could. but apparently i happened to become a professional listener somehow. 


so the story is, the A and B are still going against each other, i knew it very well. there's no right or wrong but just humans raised in different background, we couldn't blame each other for not accepting our own point of views even if u think yours is more reasonable or dominating. listen to others and to think with different perspectives are essential. so the meat, which means me, however, accidentally scraped by one of the bullets of theirs. today, after been through the exhaustion of the travels for lessons and hanging around for nothing, i could say that even a tiny simple lit of fire is pissing me off. i couldn't shoulder any straw already that was the last! stingy, i admit. always having the burning sense of being a pacifist but i just failed, once i decided to post this. 


but the fact is, 
i had fun all alone yesterday, got my longing stuff.
i had fun being a geek after the trip, sleeping and slacking like nobody's business.
i had fun during the 2D1N trip, took gazillion of photos.
i had fun shopping days ago with lovely roommate, splurged around like insane.
simple things could just easily enlighten my day. but,


this was just screwed me up.


i'll still be responsible for everything that i should do or help, still putting up a good front. 
i send my apologies if i need to. 
blame me if you'd like to. because yours truly are still suck at communicating and talking.


a lengthy post again. oh please, give me a break.




loves, jc.